Today I surrender.

At last,

my silent friend

and inscrutable companion,

you

have made it

abundantly clear

that Joy

has nothing to do

with getting

what I want.

That Joy

is no mere

vanilla flavored

emotion

but the unreasonable Fire

of Love

the Fire that made me

heart soul mind body

as it makes

everyone and 

everything

even

or perhaps

especially

the passageway

called Death.

And so in the heat

of the day

and the cold

of night

I consecrate myself

to Joy.

In grief

and in loss

in giving

and cherishing

and in all the human acts

that open me

to pain 

and pleasure

I consecrate myself

to joy.

For you

in your happiness

and your heartbreak

I consecrate myself

and you

both of us together

and the whole

of the vast

and sacred world

to immortal joy.

In hurt and anger

in fear and loneliness

in the labyrinths

of hell

I abandon myself

and consecrate myself

to the deep

immortal joy

that is 

the creative Purpose

of all Life

final and unending.

In laughter and in sorrow

in old age and ignominy

in ignorance and judgment

and in the ridiculousness

of my false hopes

I consecrate myself

to Joy!

Joy
Trudi Lee Richards

Trudi Lee Richards

Trudi Lee Richards, a poetic and musical member of the Universal Human Nation, is the author of On Wings of Intent, a biography of Silo; Soft Brushes with Death, a Jorge Espinet Primer; Confessions of Olivia, a fictional autobiography; and Fish Scribbles. She has also co-authored two books: Experiences on the Threshold and Ambrosia - Poetic Recipes/Recetas poeticas. Exactly two of her poems have been published by anyone other than her less-than-modest self: “The Great 21st Century Poemic" appeared in the April 2021 edition of Global Poemic (globalpoemic.wordpress.com); and "Fairies of the Forest" appeared in the Palo Alto Times "Youth Said It" column in 1957. In the '90s she also wrote for, edited and published an independent San Francisco newspaper, Human Future; and in the '70s she co-founded the San Francisco arts publication La Mamelle, which morphed into Art Com before it died, and whose remnants are now housed in the Stanford Archives. A graduate of Stanford University, she helped raise several humans from infancy, and is now enjoying their friendship. Currently she tends to wander between Oregon and California, enjoying the company of her beloved community of friends and family. She can more or less reliably be found at the west coast Park of Study and Reflection, outside Red Bluff in Northern California, on the third Saturday of every month.